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We Do Favors For Friends Sometimes by mattahan We Do Favors For Friends Sometimes :iconmattahan:mattahan 246 7 Provider by mattahan Provider :iconmattahan:mattahan 350 12 Dudes1 by FreeMech Dudes1 :iconfreemech:FreeMech 79 8 Melanoid After Event - Part 01 by Aivomata Melanoid After Event - Part 01 :iconaivomata:Aivomata 54 15 Melanoid After Event - Part 2 by Aivomata Melanoid After Event - Part 2 :iconaivomata:Aivomata 70 18 If We Ever Meet Again by David-Dennis If We Ever Meet Again :icondavid-dennis:David-Dennis 278 17 One In A Million by David-Dennis One In A Million :icondavid-dennis:David-Dennis 301 24 The Naked Flame by David-Dennis The Naked Flame :icondavid-dennis:David-Dennis 340 13 Before Life by David-Dennis Before Life :icondavid-dennis:David-Dennis 236 15 We're the same, You and I by Riskikoi We're the same, You and I :iconriskikoi:Riskikoi 446 15 Sustain by Riskikoi Sustain :iconriskikoi:Riskikoi 328 6 Auction #45 Team [Closed] by Aivomata Auction #45 Team [Closed] :iconaivomata:Aivomata 112 13 Zootopia Humanized by juliajm15 Zootopia Humanized :iconjuliajm15:juliajm15 1,349 112 Screencap redraw - Rule63! Esmeralda by juliajm15 Screencap redraw - Rule63! Esmeralda :iconjuliajm15:juliajm15 828 38 Study V by DjamilaKnopf Study V :icondjamilaknopf:DjamilaKnopf 813 78 That Rakugaki Hipster ScratchWork Stuff by David-Dennis That Rakugaki Hipster ScratchWork Stuff :icondavid-dennis:David-Dennis 55 13


  • Listening to: a helicopter thru glass... or perhaps a lawnmower
  • Watching: a random picarto-er
  • Drinking: wahtuh
I stopped arting because no one really seemed interested in my work. I never really got any comments, barely any favs, and I've had the same ten or so followers for a while now (you guys are great! :)). When art is your passion, and no one really seems to be taking notice of all the time and effort you put into every piece you make, it's highly disappointing, especially when you've spent 5 1/2 years in art school and it's supposed to be your future profession. I know I'm mediocre. If that. I'm not very good at faces or color theory or composition or poses. I'm not even consistent with the characters I draw. I guess, I just figured that stuff wouldn't matter because I figured there had to be people out there who were interested in following me anyway, right? And it's always been about followers/watchers. It still is. Hell, if I didn't care about watchers and favs and comments, I'd just keep my work to myself and wouldn't bother posting it at all, right?
Art school crushed my love of arting into a tiny paper ball and even now, post graduation [Fall 2014] I'm still trying to unfold it and smooth out the wrinkles. And between getting no love at school for the 'traditional' art that I hated making and no love online for the digital art that I did, it crumpled even more. Now the edges are all torn and the paper's starting to yellow and I'm wondering if it's even worth saving at all?
This isn't supposed to be a depressing post, lol. I just hadn't been on DA for awhile, and thought, maybe I'll try again. If you ask me what I want to be, it's a storyteller. Storytelling through art. A graphic novelist. The next Yuumei lol. I loves hurr. I won't lie. It frustrates me when I see other artists with skills that align with my own and they have beaucoup watchers and followers and I'm thinking 'how the hell are they doing that?' Why is it so important? If you watch Gumball on CN, I'd say that I'm a lot like Darwin and perform best with positive reinforcement. I'm writing a story on Fictionpress (or was, I've gotten awful at updating it) and every time I get a comment, it's like a breath of life washes over me. I feel creative, I feel motivated, because it's not just about me anymore. I can't let this anonymous reader down! She/He/They need to know what's going to happen next and I must indulge them!
I really don't know what the difference is between me and the other people on here that have similar skills to mine. Do they have more interesting content? More consistent? Do they comment more on others' works? Do they participate in contests? Is my work even more amateurish than I already think it is? I've spent countless hours trying to figure out the formula without having to resort to flooding my DA with My Little Pony fanart just to get people to notice me haha. I'm sure the more straightforward way is to just make better work. Make more work. I don't practice, and therefore never get any better, so how can I complain? I can't. All this isn't to say that I'm going to start flooding DA with more work, since I probably won't. But, I feel as though just being aware of this makes me feel better. I'm not going to hide behind my shame of mediocrity anymore. I'm here and I wish to create!

That is all.


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SnowSultan Featured By Owner Mar 28, 2016   Digital Artist
Thanks for the favorites.  :)
bat-linked Featured By Owner Sep 22, 2016
Ur welcome :)
StyxTwig Featured By Owner May 26, 2015
May17 2015 FavStampTHanks by StyxTwig
waywardgal Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2014  Student General Artist
You are so amazing for taking the time out to favorite some of my works! It means so much that you liked it, and I hope you will consider watching Heart
bat-linked Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2014
ur welcome friend :)
goobeetsa Featured By Owner Jun 5, 2014  Professional General Artist
CyonixGFX Featured By Owner May 13, 2014
Thanks for the fav!
bat-linked Featured By Owner May 15, 2014
ur welcome ;)
Acerbic450 Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
Thanks for the fave on my oc :D
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